Specifically, I’ve enjoyed Fleetwood Mac’s megahit “Landslide” countless times and I will always love the song. While I was driving recently, I happened to change radio stations and found “Landslide” just beginning. I was by myself and as far as I can recall, nothing immense or life-changing was happening to me, but for this particular “moment”, as the melancholy tune played its understated guitar chords through the airwaves, I was struck so deeply that I had to brace myself at the wheel. I calmed myself and listened to the entirety of the song before turning off the radio. I drove in silence soaking in the experience and focused on my feelings.
I’m referring to this “moment” because I’ve had lots of introspective thoughts about turning fifty years old in four years. If you’re a teenager, four years is a long time, especially thinking from the perspective of a freshman in high school. A senior at the end of the school year might think the opposite recalling the last four years and wondering how time could have flown so fast. Then again, some seniors would be relieved that high school is finally over. Perceptions of time vary. As for me, since turning thirty years old, I swear time has continually sped up. Interestingly enough, I did find out that time does flow at a variable rate. Science has proven that the rate of time does change with appropriate conditions, but it doesn’t explain my perception of time speeding up to the point that I can’t keep up with everything around me. I’m already staying up until 2 a.m. – 3 a.m. almost every 24 hour cycle and it’s still not enough time. I really feel like I’m racing against the clock.
Life is truly fragile … like cradling an egg in an egg race. I’m continually moving from one task to the next, harried in some cases, fully immersed in others. With one eye on that clock, I can’t miss any important tasks that require my attention at specific times during each day. I’m certain many have similar routines. Without proper care, the shell that encases the details of life will easily break and all of the effort will be for naught. Stopping to think about everything all at once will probably cause a normal person to hyperventilate, but that is why planning and having a schedule are imperative to maintaining sanity. Without proper attention, it’s easy to become dysfunctional.
But, everyone needs breaks from time to time. Personal reflection is self-therapy that helps mitigate the anxiety and stress that may take over if not properly maintained. Music does that for me. Writing does also. A good movie is a great escape. I’m always travelling to different places in my dreams and I wake up reviewing my experiences. That’s grand too. Whatever “floats your boat”, don’t ignore those inestimable “moments” that take you by surprise. They won’t happen in the exact manner again.
In my own life, adolescence was about living for each moment. My twenties were about dreaming, planning, and the uncertainty of the future. My thirties allowed me to take root and grow. My forties, thus far, have been about contemplation and appreciating everything. At times, I find myself wondering about turning fifty. Not that I’m in any hurry, but I hear it’s going to be grand. The prospect also scares me. Turning fifty gives me a bit of the chills for some reason. I find myself in the state of mind I was in while I was in my twenties, but seasoned with the wisdom I gained in my thirties.
I know Stevie Nicks wrote “Landslide” with specific intentions at heart. I soak in the music as a warning for my own life. That’s why I’m taking the necessary steps to nurture and protect my investments of time. There are no guarantees, but I’m sure as heck making every effort to not break that egg. Music like “Landslide” serves as a reminder, or as a sign, to help me roll with the punches and press forward. I also realize I’m not supposed to do everything and I hope every person minds these “moments” in their own lives. It’s guaranteed to stimulate thought and bring attention to things that might otherwise go unnoticed, but should be noticed. That attention will have a profound effect.
"Landslide" is a song written by Stevie Nicks and performed by British-American music group Fleetwood Mac. It was first featured on the band's 1975 eponymous album Fleetwood Mac. Along with "Rhiannon", “Landslide” became Nicks' first original contributions to the band upon joining.