I can be a sucker for a really heavy, painful ballad. "My Immortal" is one of those songs that immediately tugged at my heartstrings, in a distressing way, of course. It's a terribly sorrowful composition, full of regret, with no resolution. I've been posting so many mushy, gushy, love songs. And, don't get me wrong. I prefer to sing the mushy gushy ballads - as much as possible. But, once in a blue moon, the coin is flipped. The opposite comes to light. Those emotions are real too. Hopefully, most people never have to experience such intense anguish. But, unfortunately, where there is light, darkness must also exist. "My Immortal" reflects that darkness.
"My Immortal", released on December 8, 2003, is the third single from American alternative metal band Evanescence's major label debut album, Fallen. At the 47th Annual Grammy Awards the song was nominated in the Best Pop Performance by a Duo or Group category. The song reached number seven in the United States and the United Kingdom and number one in Portugal; in Canada it debuted at number one and spent over twenty weeks in the top five. In Australia, it was the seventh-highest selling single of 2004. The song was certified Gold by the RIAA on February 17, 2009, selling over 500,000 copies.
The song was written by Evanescence's former guitarist, Ben Moody, with Amy Lee adding the bridge later. Like all songs written by Moody, the lyrics are based on a short story he wrote. As stated by Lee, "..."My Immortal" was Ben [Moody]'s song!" Several versions of the song exist, including one demo version the band made from 1997-1998 (Evanescence EP outtakes), which includes some different lyrics (entirely written and composed by Moody); one featured on the band's demo album, Origin (lead singer Amy Lee recomposed the song and changed the lyrics); the one featured on Fallen (similar to the one on Origin, except with added strings); their Mystary EP version (similar to the band version, minus the band); and a band version of "My Immortal", the radio version mentioned above in which the final phrase of the music is filled with heavy guitars and drums (where it contains strings in the album version), which was the version used in the music video and was also included as an additional track in newer editions of Fallen. In all versions, the song is based on Amy's voice and piano riffs. Some time after the release of Fallen, the band version of the song was made available for download to owners of the original pressing. However, only residents of a limited number of countries were eligible for this.