It's time to update everyone since my last video log. This covers many of my activities over the past 6 months.
Special "Thanks" to Thomas at the John Howie Steak Restaurant in Bellevue, WA!!!
Letting go is not the same as forgetting. Letting go is only the beginning ...
On this day, I opened a new YouTube channel for the sole purpose of posting my final YouTube video. Please go to: http://youtu.be/MWcv4uWnphw to view my farewell to YouTube. The following is the blog associated with the video.
The circumstances for my departure from YouTube are profound for me. Within the last few months, before my original channel, cglazaro100, was terminated by YouTube/Google on November 19, 2012, I was growing restless with the covers of popular music I was posting, not because I was getting bored, or that I was running out of songs to cover, but because I was searching for a more creative expression for myself. The covers served as chronological references that supported my blogs, but the covers were no longer satisfying my needs. I needed and yearned to be more creative. I yearned for something that I could really call my own, instead of just reinterpreting other people’s work. And, because of the termination of my original YouTube channel, I was forced to pursue something new. And, something new I am pursuing.
The covers and blogs I created for YouTube began my journey for providing insight into my life and they will continue to serve as a video journal for my children. I will repost all (149) of my YouTube videos on my website (www.lazarolivingdream.com) and I will continue to post new videos and blogs from time to time. I did already have a few videos in queue before my YouTube journey ended abruptly, but these small projects are no longer my focus. My efforts for my children will continue through my writing. I am creating a body of work I can truly call my own. I’m organizing my dreams, my experiences, my Faith, my ideologies, my love, my musings, my thoughts … I’m developing all of these expressions into a bounded body of writing infused by my passion and sealed with my desire for sharing. I have a foundation for the writing material that will tie everything together and I have a working title, but developing everything and putting it all together will take some time. I plan to see this through, but dedication and inspiration will ultimately determine the time frame for completing this endeavor. This will become a treasure for my children. I’m also hoping that this collection of writing will serve other people, as well. I intend to advertise my efforts and get it published so that I can share with our world once again.
I’m Absolutely Excited to make this publication a reality and I’m anticipating adversity along the way, but I hope and pray that I will overcome all obstacles and successfully make this dream come true. I’m hoping that people reading this blog will also be interested. I am finally developing writing that will B U R S T from the limitations of YouTube and its tiny description box. This Freedom is Wonderful!!! I’m anticipating the moment when I’m able to sit back and enjoy the fruits of my labor. I’m hoping it will be as sweet as I’m envisioning it to be. The seed is planted and the hard work begins with nurturing what I have sown. I’m praying for good weather along the way!
Many Wonderful Greetings to my family and friends around our world ...
In June 2012, my YouTube channel was shut down. I appealed the action. Google staff investigated and determined that I had not violated any conditions. I was never given any information regarding the matter and those actions were never justified. Five months have passed and my YouTube channel has suffered the same fate a second time. Again, I made an appeal to Google. And, again, all I can do is to wait and see if my channel reappears.
Regardless of whether my channel is definitely lost or reactivated, it is with great sadness to announce that my journey on YouTube has come to a close. With this second round of disappointment, I’m not willing to put myself through the lurking uncertainty that another round, and another round, and potentially countless more rounds of doom await me. I was willing to take a second chance, but … how does the saying go? “Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me.”And twice is all it will be. I’m mostly saddened by the fact that YouTube/Google terminated my channel twice without justifying their actions.
I can only speculate as to why my channel was shut down. My troubles did begin soon after I started developing and uploading studio quality recordings. Prior to June 2012, I was a guy singing in his family room, in front of a video camera. And now, I’m enjoying and gaining knowledge in sound engineering and producing studio quality music. Unfortunately, I may have unknowingly violated copyright laws with my recordings. But, with all due respect, I did everything I could to give credit where credit was due. I have certainly learned a great deal from all of my experiences producing videos for YouTube. In the last thirty-four months, I became a better performer and singer. I also had the chance to flex my writing skills. I made many friends around the world. And, that is what I will miss most dearly for my weekly efforts. The videos and blogs will remain dedicated memoirs for my children, but I never imagined that people from around the world would also cherish what I had been doing all this time.
I will miss the personal messages from my YouTube friends who let me know that I had positively affected their lives. Some enjoyed my Sunday morning post with a good cup of joe. Some felt that I was the highlight of their week. Some felt we were kindred spirits. Some even made videos using the covers I had produced and those videos may very well be the last remnants of my efforts on YouTube. Some felt that my blogs were even more valuable than my covers. In every case, my YouTube friends added fuel to the fire that inspired me every week. And, I’m sad that I am now letting them down. But, I haven’t lost hope. I will Always have Hope. I’m searching for a new approach with less of a “Big Brother” power behind it.
I do have this website: http://lazarolivingdream.com. It’s not the perfect vehicle for my vision, but I’m moving forward and beginning with my website. I’m currently on hold and sitting tight regarding my musings and my videos. If my channel does reappear, I’ll post one last video. My last video will be a vlog announcing my departure from posting any further videos on YouTube for the reasons I mentioned earlier. I will add by expressing that too much heartache is at stake for me. I dedicate myself to everything I do with clear determination. I’m angry and I’m sad that my efforts on YouTube instantaneously disappeared as if I had done nothing at all … TWICE. It may be egotistic, but I know that people all around our world found value in what I had done. I will certainly find another way to reach out and hopefully build upon what I’ve learned. So, for the time being, this e-mail will mark a pause in my blogs and my video productions until I have news to share.
I want to thank everyone who enjoyed my weekly post and the following cover is the video that may have done me in. LOL … Sigh … I did post my cover of Coldplay’s “Viva La Vida” on November 18, 2012 and it lasted for one day before my channel was shut down … how ironic for this particular cover. Anyway, I was just picking up steam with my musings when someone pushed the pause button. C’est la vie. Here it is …